How are you feeling?

This post is about me, not the election.  As in How is Sara feeling.

My boob is the size of a mini-basketball and it is firm like it as well.  I feel like I got hit in the chest with a baseball bat, but the pain is up and down.  I'm up moving around and probably over did it yesterday so today, I will lay low.  I am not truly in pain as in ouch, but more of just a bothersome pain.  

Yesterday, Amy and I went to Walmart to get a supportive bra.  I feel like a true WALMARTIAN now because I wore my pajamas there.  I found a XXXL bra to fit around my enlarged boob and wore it out of the store.  It provided comfort yesterday and I should definitely put it on soon because I'm feeling some pain.  We did some other shopping as well like more Tylenol, Colace, a mandolin, a peeler, and another button up shirt.  Winter is upon us and there are no short sleeve shirts.  Shopping in Walmart wore me out.

When we got to City Market for groceries, I hopped right into the driving cart and led Amy around pointing out things to get on my list.  Those things do not have a great turning radius, and I slammed into the gift card display.  Luckily nothing came down.  And some people were great about letting me go by and some people must have thought I didn't need to be in a driving cart as young as I am (haha).  

Those two trips wore me out and I returned home to take a short nap.  Then I ate lunch and Amy and I played SHUT THE BOX.  I laid down some, we had a wonderful meal thanks to Sara H. who made me lasagna before leaving the park, and we (Amy and I) ended the night watching the movie Unfrosted.  Murray of course finished with the election results.  

Not sure what time I finally went to sleep, but I do know I awoke at 215am.  I took some meds and read some of my kindle book before falling back to sleep.  Pabst was having some good dreams and kept kicking the closet and so by 600am I was up and awake.  There is snow on the ground.

Today, I am going to try to take it easy, but when I have to lay in bed and rest, I do not.  When I don't have to rest, I can lay in bed all day.  So here goes resting today.

Until next time....

Here we go....

I walked into the grocery store the other day and this was the first thing that I saw.  No way in hell I bought it as most of you know I have the absolute hatred for these fricking balloons.  But anyway, I've had a lot of people reach out and say, "how are you doing or how are you feeling?".  And to be honest, I've had a hard time answering those questions.  I told Lisa "like a wrecking ball".  But honestly, that is just what the first thing that came into my mind was.  Do I have bad days?  Sure I do, but then I bounce back with a good day.  Probably the worse I've endured this last week is my sleeping.  I've awakened at 2am almost every night and immediately some damn cancer thought comes into my mind and then I play toon blast until 4, sleep until 6, go about my day, and somehow make it through without a nap.  

There has been an update as of late and I've been waiting until today to post about it.  Surgery is tomorrow!  My team and I are heading over to Durango this evening because it is supposed to snow and also because I have to be at the hospital at 6:45am.  Then I get to hang out all fricking day.  Surgical nurse said I'd probably be released around 4:00pm.  UGH.  I told the team to just drop me off and come back later.  No sense they sitting in uncomfortable chairs reading books all day.  But of course, that won't happen.  

The actual surgery is not until 12:00pm.  I start the morning off with some radiology appointment where they put wires in my boob to mark the margins of the mass.  I am also injected with some dye that will trace to my lymph nodes.  Then I just hang out until 12:00pm.  The surgery will be around 1.5 hours.  I will be moved into Phase I recovery.  Once I've passed Phase I, I will be moved into Phase II and the team can come in and bother me.  And then I will be released.  Depending on weather, we will either drive back to Cortez or stay over again.  

I'm ready...

I have a shirt that Murray's brother sent me to wear "DON'T LET IT WIN" with pink ribbons.  Of course, I probably won't be wearing it home as I won't be able to lift my arm.  Amy and I went and got a comfy pajama button up top yesterday to wear home.  And Amy did some shopping prior to driving up to get me a proper after surgery bra that snaps in the front.  Luckily, she lives in Phoenix where you can order something from Amazon at 8:00am and have it delivered by 5:00pm the same day.  But she also went to several other stores to get others.  We took some back to Walmart last night.  

So here we go...

Until next time....