Here we go....

I walked into the grocery store the other day and this was the first thing that I saw.  No way in hell I bought it as most of you know I have the absolute hatred for these fricking balloons.  But anyway, I've had a lot of people reach out and say, "how are you doing or how are you feeling?".  And to be honest, I've had a hard time answering those questions.  I told Lisa "like a wrecking ball".  But honestly, that is just what the first thing that came into my mind was.  Do I have bad days?  Sure I do, but then I bounce back with a good day.  Probably the worse I've endured this last week is my sleeping.  I've awakened at 2am almost every night and immediately some damn cancer thought comes into my mind and then I play toon blast until 4, sleep until 6, go about my day, and somehow make it through without a nap.  

There has been an update as of late and I've been waiting until today to post about it.  Surgery is tomorrow!  My team and I are heading over to Durango this evening because it is supposed to snow and also because I have to be at the hospital at 6:45am.  Then I get to hang out all fricking day.  Surgical nurse said I'd probably be released around 4:00pm.  UGH.  I told the team to just drop me off and come back later.  No sense they sitting in uncomfortable chairs reading books all day.  But of course, that won't happen.  

The actual surgery is not until 12:00pm.  I start the morning off with some radiology appointment where they put wires in my boob to mark the margins of the mass.  I am also injected with some dye that will trace to my lymph nodes.  Then I just hang out until 12:00pm.  The surgery will be around 1.5 hours.  I will be moved into Phase I recovery.  Once I've passed Phase I, I will be moved into Phase II and the team can come in and bother me.  And then I will be released.  Depending on weather, we will either drive back to Cortez or stay over again.  

I'm ready...

I have a shirt that Murray's brother sent me to wear "DON'T LET IT WIN" with pink ribbons.  Of course, I probably won't be wearing it home as I won't be able to lift my arm.  Amy and I went and got a comfy pajama button up top yesterday to wear home.  And Amy did some shopping prior to driving up to get me a proper after surgery bra that snaps in the front.  Luckily, she lives in Phoenix where you can order something from Amazon at 8:00am and have it delivered by 5:00pm the same day.  But she also went to several other stores to get others.  We took some back to Walmart last night.  

So here we go...

Until next time....